my feeling..

today, papa have to attend a seminar at sg petani.. so, mama go along with my small sibling, munir.. the cutest kid among us.. huhu.. they might have to stay there for 3 days and 2 nights.. well, i hope everything there and here is okay.. nothing goes wrong, i hope.. amin..

well, actually i want to call my friend, azroy.. he is a year older than me.. and has already in working sector.. keep on good job, dude! well, i want to call him.. but, the phone not working again.. at this rate of time.. huhu.. i feel a bit lonely.. but, i still not understand until today.. do i love him?? this question always strick my mind.. till, i feel it is better for me not to know him at the first place.. huh! i'm not sure my feeling towards him.. this is new to me.. for me, it is quite a shy topic.. should be avoided.. hmm..

but, for sure.. i like to talk to him.. i feel a bit nervous when i am talking with him.. but, i like the feeling.. quite weird, is it? i feel like my time pass more quickly when i talk to him.. his voice so cool, but my sis tell me that his voice is so gruff.. well, i do not think that is the matter.. coz, it can soften my heart.. i always want.. and want.. to listen to his voice.. is this feeling called love? i still deny it.. coz, i do not know what sort of feeling is this.. sometimes it is good, sometimes it is bad..

another thing that make me want to know whether it is.. love or not.. well, he had asked me whether i love him or not.. i answer.. i don't know.. it is new to me.. i don't like to let him down.. and surely, i don't like to play with his heart.. coz, he have been left by a girl who get an evil charm on herself.. well, i think the motive is jealousy.. huhu..

and currently, he is demanding in seeing my pic.. should i give it? well, i have to think and think.. after making some sort of random sampling.. along with a special prayer called istiharah.. i make up my mind to give him a peek of my face.. huhu.. i hope it is okay.. what do you think? it is right to do like this?